Yeah…. It’s been a while since I have had the inclination to log into this blog and post something tTime, Life, the Grind (and laundry!) all take up so much time in one’s day that by the time you realize it, nothing has been posted and it’s time to go to bed to let Time, Life and the Grind take over again the next day..
I say all this to say, I’m slacking on the blogging.. No- -slacking is an understatement.. I just plan ol’ quit it… Didn’t even make an effort and that is pathetic. There is no defense. My babysis has kept her blog alive and well.. She is chronicling her life’s ups and downs and I am reading all about it..We started this blogging journey together.. I have not kept up my end of the deal.. To write more. Blog. and discover my voice.. This saddens me and makes me question all of my past actions.
When Hubs, who knows me best, asked me how my blog was doing , I had to shamefully admit to not posting since November. He, the man I have been through the fire with, called me a quitter. Said that I always quit before I have a chance to fail.
I stood slack jawed and had no words with which to defend myself. That kind of statement demands reflection..which I did then.
Do I really? Am I a quitter? AM I scared of failure? Do I start things with the greatest and earnest intentions and quit before I have a chance to fail?
I’ll admit that I do quit things.. before I someone else tells me I’m not the best. Things come easy for me and I have always been content with 2nd or 3rd with no work.. [Although in my defense, I used to be content with #2 when it meant I could spend more time doing things that I wanted to do (read, hang with friends and ...... 
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And, I have quit almost everything that I liked and was good at .. Piano, Gymnastics, flute. Even trying to design clothes, I never had a chance to start. Ms.Teacher didn’t like my work and I quit. What does that say about me? Was my blog doomed before it had a chance to BE?
Since it’s the end of 2008 and people the world around are contemplating what the new year will bring, I will resolve this:
1. To continue this blog. Write. Discover me and MY voice.
2. To not forget to cherish the people who love me, support me, and encourage me.
3. To give thanks for the miracles that I see every day. The smiles (and tears) of my daughters. The gas prices dropping at the pump. My mother strong- for better, for worse, in sickness and in health.
4. To stop writing plots and subplots and developing characters in my head and put them down on paper..
5. To pray for those people who love me, support me and encourage me.
6. I will believe 2009 is my time to shine! I’m just like you, I gotta fight to stay strong. Just cause it glitters doesn’t mean that it’s golden.. I will Shine while my light’s ON!!!
